So as many of you know, I began a journey to get healthy in January. January 13th was the day I gave up late night fast food, couch potato-ness. And pop. It was difficult, it IS difficult. But I had dug myself into this unhealthy, unhappy hole. I was not happy with myself, I was not happy with how I felt physically and emotionally. So I did it. I decided I was not going to feel that way anymore. With the grace of Jesus, and the motivation within, and with encouraging family and friends, my journey began and is still continuing.
I am different than most people. I don't eat when I'm sad, and I eat a TON when I am happy. When I met Dion, and we fell head over heels, I ate...and ate...and ate. I gained a lot of weight. One because I was happy and two because my freakishly non-human husband can eat like a 500 pound man, and gain nothing, notta, ZERO. Which sucks for me. Then last August came. We found out bad baby news. I got depressed, I only found the slightest bit of happiness by eating. Which isn't like me. In the past I would be sad, and not eat. But I ate myself into a coma, I ate garbage. I had less physical activity in my life than ever before. And this made me even MORE depressed.
Then January 13th came. I was tired of crying about not being able to have a baby right now. I was tired of forcing myself into my already large size clothes that wouldn't fit. So I did something. Slowly, I began to feel again. Feel happiness. Feel hope for babies in our future. Even though I know Dion has always and no matter what will always think I am beautiful and know I am, I begin to feel excited to lose weight for him. He deserves the best version of me. Not the eating-herself-into-a-coma, sad and crying version of me.
So here I am, almost 3 months later, and 26 pounds later. I am by no means finished, but I am by all means so much happier. I am NOT saying losing weight makes people happy. I am saying taking charge of your situation, and letting God come in and have your heart back, that is happiness. I am still a work in progress, and I am so excited about the future and how far I know I will go with Jesus, Dion, family and friends along my side.
You can do weight loss friends. You can do healthy. It is NOT easy, but you CAN do it. I am a walking testimony of it.
